Ohhh geez…I don’t even know where to begin. I suppose a quick recap of the past year should help. This year held many milestones for my young adult life; for starters I’m no longer a teenager! I am an adult. Legal to buy cigarettes or serve my country or both, Socially held a bit more accountable as a “young adult” , but still not old enough to be taken seriously by the majority or buy a drink to deal with my sorrows. haha. JK drinking never helps a person’s sorrows; trust me on that one. Anyways, Life welcomed me into my 20s with a series of unfortunate events, landsliding me back to rock bottom before I even knew what happened. I suppose that’s life, just a series of hits and misses. If you have ever seen an overly dramatic soap opera that has been my life since I was 15. About 5 years later and it has yet to end. It should become the next Days of Our Lives. haha.
Within 2.5 weeks my life crumbled quickly as I stood there helplessly. It all started with losing the woman of my dreams. Pouring out my heart, begging for another chance she kicked me while I was down. Oh well Hearts break all the time. I’m young I’ll be fine; it’s all a part of life. You have to go through the wrong ones to get to the right one…. Right!? As I began to pick myself up from that fall; I come to find out the place I was soon to move into backed out. 2 weeks before starting work and 4 weeks before starting school and here I am with no where to live. It wasn’t meant to be , I’m sure I’ll find something better . At that point with all the family stress and tension all I was holding on to was my trip to Orlando, Florida for 9 days with one of the sweetest most attractive young ladies I know. I spoke to soon. That Sunday, 9 days prior to my flight, she texts me with 2 words that stole the ground from beneath me…“I can’t”. WHAT!?!?! I don’t understand; what is it that can’t be done? She wouldn’t cancel on me. She’s been begging me to come. She knows how much this trip means to me. There’s no way. She wouldn’t. I already bought the ticket and told my dad. SHIT! My dad , i just sent him her info for him to confirm. As I called my father to tell him not to contact her; she went on to tell me to get a refund & save my money for something else.To fast forward a bit I ended up telling my sob story to Delta Airlines and after the woman told me how bad she felt for me she gave me back $230.05 out of the original $400.05 I had spent. Talk about an expensive life lesson.
Within the following week I found out my Great Aunt was put in the hospital because she couldn’t breathe. I wouldn’t worry as much if she wasn’t in her 70s and only about 74 lbs. As I was leaving the hospital driving home on the freeway my tire came apart. Once I had safely made it to the right emergency lane I dialed triple A just to find out my family forgot to renew my membership. Are you kidding me?! How do you forget to renew your youngest daughter’s Triple A membership!? Really! Anything else!? Later once I had gotten my car to the auto shop I came to find that my tire didn’t only come apart but the pieces hit my bumper to where it was coming off, dented the corner of my door, cut the wires for my lights, turn signals, and breaks! hahahahahaha FANTASTIC! Slowly but surley my sanity began to fade as I became delusional and a bit hysterical. Fast forward about 2 days, I’m in my recently fixed car driving to SF for the first time as a mini weekend vacation. Once I get there the friend who invited me took me to the pier , walked in front of me as if she wasn’t with me, didn’t talk to me, and would randomly talk on her blue tooth. Later after about 4 hours of being ignored I asked her what’s her problem and I was told Nothing you’re over thinking it. Hating the tension I decided it was time to leave. I fell asleep to wake up as early as possible and get out of there. 4 AM I’m woken to her hands on my body….EXCUSE ME!!!! My body is MINE! Don’t touch me unless permitted to do so! After a few times of pushing her hand off me I got up and told her to back off and keep her hands to herself. With a dazed look on her face she said ” So you don’t want to……ummm you know?” my response: No I don’t know and even if I did my answer is HELL NO! Back off weirdo. A few hours later I woke up and slipped out of there before anything else happened. TIP: people can seem really chill when you only see them for an hour but anything more then that and things can change!
Finally after a 6 hour drive I come back home to realize the 2 guys I call my brothers have ditched me for the 2nd time in a week. Fast Forward 48 hours. My BFF gets her license and to celebrate she wanted to do something crazy… Naturally I let her drive my car like she has a million times before except now it was legal. After picking up a close male friend of mine we were getting back on to the free way and she turned off the lights accidentally while attempting to turn off her turn signal. BLACK OUT. Ummm it’s really dark? Who turned off the lights? Why do I feel like we aren’t on the ramp anymore? Hmm.. Well then; I wonder if I can find my cigarettes something tells me I’m going to need one whenever we come to a stop. Have you ever opened your eyes and still couldn’t see? You know that moment where you aren’t sure if you’ve gone blind or if your eyes are just closed? Terrifying. As we flew off the ramp and into a dark abyss my car finally stops…. My car didn’t just stop but it didn’t flip, stopped an inch away from a fence, 3 feet before a huge cement block, and without a single scratch; my car stopped. Everyone from highway patrol to the tow truck guys were shocked my car was in perfect condition as were the passengers in it. After being towed up and out of the ditch my car was perfectly fine to drive just a bit dirty. Fast Forward about a week or so my brothers how haven’t even bothered to ask if i’m okay or living uninvite a good friend of mine to a palm springs trip that they invited me to as well. She got lucky she was at least uninvited, my brothers simply invited me and left without me and i’m considered family. Hahahahhahahahahah no.
& This well this brings us up to today.
Life isn’t perfect nor is it great and dandy, life is still difficult just not in shambles. Life takes us to strange places you just need to learn to make the best of it and that- that is exactly what I’m doing! Now that we are all caught up with my life this blog will become a mix of LGBT related topics with my opinion/commentary & posts about my hectic and chaotic life.